(my name vignette)
assignment for Eng 2, Mrs. Beckham
When I first came to the United States, people struggled pronouncing my name. They said, “Yutakito, Yutaki, Yutaco, OOtaka,” all sorts of different ways. I came up with something so that everyone can pronounce it correctly. I always tell people to say, Utah, and then put KAH, behind it and then they would be able to say it with no problem.
My name in Japanese means, “flying around the world with joy.” To me, this is not an accident; maybe it was my destiny. My childhood dream was be able to fly; I always contemplated flying.The cartoons and tv shows influenced me when I was little. I thought I could fly by watching cartoon and TV shows. My grandpa used to tell me stories of superheroes , which made me curious and gave more confidence towards my dream. But my elder brother was constantly ruining my dream by telling me the truth. He used to tell me that you won’t be able to fly. I always asked why. He said that if a person was able to fly that you would be a hero, which you can’t be. He always told me that I was stupid and belittled me.
One time, I was so convinced that I could fly that I was going to try it out. I stood on the end of the couch. It was a very tall couch, and I was very young. I put a towel around my neck so that it looked like a cape. I was determined that this would work. I jumped as high and hard as I could,But it did not go well. I landed on a glass table top with a hard smack. I went to the hospital, they took the glass out and stitched up my head. I don’t remember the pain now, but I am sure it was really bad, I still have a small mark on my forehead; I feel like this was very foolish. I realized then, that I was wrong. My name reminds me of my childhood innocence. And although I knew that I couldn’t fly, I still thought about it.
My grandma always called me ‘wings’ in Japanese, “Tsubasa.” I was confused that she wasn’t calling me by my actual name. I assumed that she might know about my dream, which made me imperturbable. She is not here now, but I wish I could have asked her when she was here. After all that, the grown up me has realized how special my name is. It has always been disappointing that I even believed in flying, but sometimes a dream is just a dream. I may not be able to fly in real life, but my life can still reflect my name, that I will spread joy around the world.