by EMME ECKENFELDER (11th grade)
The Things I Wish I’d Done
I’ve been told that your brain spends 70%
of its time replaying memories and
making up perfect scenarios.
The problem is that MY brain spends
70% of its time making my memories into perfect scenarios.
I slip all the things I wish I’d said or done
into the thoughts of my past
and pretend that I was
in those moments lost.
I pretend that I had worked harder,
pushed myself to do better,
not quit when I was so far ahead; so unknowingly in love
with my endeavors.
I pretend that when I got back up
I did not walk away. Because now when I
look over my shoulder at what could have been
and realize how far out of
reach it all is, all I can do is
swallow the lump and roam forward in hopes
that the next time I look back
the perfect scenarios
have already been